I hate being rejected

I want sex but my partner is rarely in the mood. It’s such a chore. We are sexually incompatible and I feel deprived. He also makes me feel shame for wanting sex or thinks I want it too much. Yeah I’m horny it’s not a bad thing and want to connect. I hate feeling rejected all the time too. I guess I’m going to have to have to masterbate more. It makes me feel lonely in this marriage.