It's just too depressing

I'm really jealous of everyone who had found out they are pregnant this month. After my period ends in two days this will be our 10th month ttc#2. I've gotten so sick and tired of crying for a week straight when my period shows up. Last month I didn't do any tracking. Not even CM. I'm just so tired of thinking anything I do different is actually going to help... Good luck to everyone else because this is a horrible and stressful experience. My SO keeps telling me that it well happen when it happens but nothing makes me more hurt than hearing that.