38+5 feeling completely done

I’m due on the 27th, my midwife mentioned that if he isn’t here by the 26th they would schedule an induction for the following week. But I’m just exhausted and so irritable and need a break. I’ve still been working, even though I work from home I start the day at 5am and have busy days with calls and meetings to where I get off at 3, clean, shower, prep dinner then feel like I’m going to pass out.

I tried to call into work today, but since I work from home my boss always just says go “take it easy” but then expects me to still show up for the zoom meetings with camera on and looking professional. I don’t think I can take another two weeks of this. As I’m unable to start my maternity leave (unpaid fmla f you America) until I’m literally in labor.

Our air conditioning in the house is also broken right now, the only room it works in is our bedroom so I’ve been working from here and spending as much time as I can in here because with the heat I swell and feel lightheaded.

I just really want a break before baby is here but I know I can’t have it and I’m starting to feel really depressed and overwhelmed. My husband helps as much as he can but he works 12 hour shifts and we don’t have any family or friends close by.

I’m so irritable and uncomfortable, I’m also starving 24/7 and eat till I feel like I’m going to throw up but I cant stop. I just want to be able to sleep through the night without getting up every hour to pee and have one day off just for me.