How do I not feel lonely?/Rant

Hannah

I’m 13w4d as of now, and I am so excited about this baby! My family is excited, my fiancé is excited, everyone is so happy. I’ve already started to get some of the unsolicited advice, but I knew that was coming. That’s not really an issue. I either just half-listen and nod along or completely change the subject if I don’t feel like entertaining it. My MIL is in grandma-mode and it’s the cutest thing ever! I just feel like I have no one to go to about the everyday pregnancy things, or the weird dreams, or funny little things I notice. I’m the oldest, and my 18 year old sister is so jealous (she didn’t take birth control for a week at one point thinking she would get pregnant. Not sure if it was a “I wanna do that too!” Excitement kind of thing or…🤷🏼‍♀️), my SIL is also the same way just not as extreme I guess. She made the comment “y’all are doing everything I want to do, just first” a week or so ago. My best friend is 5+ years older than me and has two kids already, so all she does is scare me with her hospital stories or I get the “just wait” comments. I don’t speak to my mom. My dad is overseas and also a man obviously, so I kind of lose him when I talk about a lot of stuff. Grandparents just want to talk about “well back when we had your mom…”. My fiancé is excited and supportive, but if I talk about anything for too long, it’s “what do you want me to do about it baby?” Or he ends up changing the subject. I’m trying to be super understanding of everyone, their feelings, and the roles they play, but I just end up getting to this point and feeling completely alone. Is it my fault? Do I need to change my thinking? Is it wrong for me to feel like this since everyone is doing as much as they can at this point? How do I fix this without making anyone feel bad?