Anxiety!

-Ok, I'm not really sure how to say this and it might get all jumbled up, so I apologize if it does (staying anonymous, so just check back to the post for a reply to your comments).

-I have never really had anxiety (except like 2 panic attacks, one at like age 16 and another maybe like 2 years ago). I'm currently 24, almost 25.

-I have been literally afraid of everything/worse case scenario lately. These past two weeks or so have been absolutely horrific, it's been building for about 4 weeks now, but I feel like I have hit a wall now.

I have had the worst thoughts ever for 2 days now (it's Saturday night, been happening since Thursday night).

-Like, thoughts of

*my MIL (who has been passed for almost 2 years now)

*driving my car off the road because I can't handle life

*if I fell off equipment at work and d**d, nobody would care

*if I wrecked my car I wouldn't be able to call for help & no car would stop or care (I was in an area of no service)

-Y'all, I probably shouldn't be putting this on here, but, I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do, I've been praying so much lately and just trying to get an answer, I just don't understand.

-Any tips or help or prayers are greatly appreciated!