Ttc after mc

It's been almost 2 weeks since my third miscarriage in a row. I should ovulate soon but I don't even know if I want to keep ttc. I'm so heartbroken at the thought of never holding a baby again. Never buying tiny clothes and not giving my daughter the sibling she so desperately wants. I'm also terrified at the thought of putting myself through another miscarriage. They are so painful both mentally and physically and idk if I can get through it again. I'm so sad and worried. I feel stupid for trying again knowing the odds are it'll be another miscarriage. I hate putting my family through that.