Is it too late to cancel baby shower

It took a bit of convincing by my friends and family to have me agree to a baby shower. Receiving gifts makes me uncomfortable under most circumstances and I also do not like being the center of attention. My wedding was just our parents, siblings and our daughter (and that was by choice - we did not want anything big).

my best friend who does love parties recently got engaged and has planned her bachelorette and bridal shower on by baby shower date twice. So I had to move it - she moved the second time. Anyway all the moving of dates has made it so that my shower won’t be until mid July- about 4 weeks from my due date. I not super stoked to be to close to my due date and having the shower.

I’v been feeling really icky about the whole thing. It makes be anxious when I think about my shower and it doesn’t give me any joy when I think about having one.

I work A LOT- 50+ hours a week and I’m planning on working till my due date. I feel like I’m also stressed because it feels like I cramming my baby shower into an already stressful/crazy schedule.

My husband said he would be upset if I canceled, and that it would hurt his moms feelings. He said I would be taking away and opportunity for her to celebrate her first grandchild (our daughter is his step daughter so this would be a first blood related grandchild). BUT we are flying out of state when the baby is 1 mo old to have him baptized at his moms family church, isn’t that celebration for his side of the family enough?

Am I being ungrateful or dramatic? Also is it too late to cancel?