Forced sex?

So I have been thinking about how I lost my virginity 2 years ago. I was drunk and I had been talking to this guy. I was basically so drunk I blacked out and fell on the concrete and scrapped my knee all up. That’s how bad I was. Couldn’t even talk normal. Well we went up to his room bc I was tired and ready to go to sleep. He begged me to give him a bj but I had never done that before so I kept telling him no and he kept feeling up on me while I was saying no. I didn’t want to do anything, mostly bc I couldn’t sit up straight without falling over and I was scared. So to get him to shut up and get the BJ out of his mind I told him I’d rather just have sex, and he said okay bet. So we ended up screwing. Even when I told him I wanted to stop bc it hurt but he kept going. After that day he ended everything with me. Am I wrong for thinking this was messed up? Am I reaching? At the time I didn’t think nothing of it bc I was trying to win him back, and I was already falling for him, we had been talking for 3 months (this was in 2019) and it’s been in my head a lot lately. I just need someone elses opinion. I feel like what he did wasn’t right but then again I feel like it was my fault.