Living alone, bittersweet

I love living alone, but I have depression and I age regress to about 1-5 and sometimes it’s really hard cause I don’t have someone to take care of me, and that’s all I want. I just want a mommy, to love and take care of me. I’ll usually just end up crying myself to sleep with my stuffie, idrk the point of this post, ig I just wanted other people to know I struggle without other people actually knowing