Not happy

I hate to sound ungrateful considering a lot of women have to pray for this but is anyone else having a really hard time with their pregnancy? Idk maybe it’s just life right now, but I can’t even be happy about it. I’ve been feeling so miserable between working at 6:30am, throwing up all day to the point I had to go to the hospital for fluids and zofran prescription, taking zofran around the clock to be able to keep food and water down, taking care of my two year old who refuses to nap now straight after work all by myself because as soon as I get home from work, my fiancé has to leave for work, the bloating is so severe I already look 20 weeks pregnant because I haven’t had a bowel movement in almost 4 days now, the exhaustion is overbearing, I can’t catch a freaking break. It just feels like I’m being swallowed by negative thoughts and not to mention I feel more short fused. These hormones got me f*cked up. I’m so sorry if I sound ungrateful or horrible but I need to write out how I’m feeling because I really feel bad. And today I felt like a really bad mom. My son was throwing really bad tantrums and I was mean. I yelled some and I smacked his hand and butt when I firmly believe in gentle parenting, I just didn’t have it in me today and I f*cking feel so awful 😖 I’m just exhausted. Not that any of you aren’t, but it’s really getting to me.

@Hanah- thank you. I told my son that as well that sometimes we just have really hard days and we will have a better day tomorrow. I told him I was sorry and that I love him very much. Gave him a kiss Goodnight and went on my way. But ugh wow. I can’t believe how enraged I was feeling today I really hate that.