Lack of desire to masturbate…

So I’ve never really been into masturbating. And that’s part of the reason I’ve never orgasmed I guess… like a guy has never gotten me to orgasm and everyone says I have to figure out how to do it myself first. BUT I JUST DON’T LIKE TO DO IT OKAY! Like it’s so frustrating to hear that every time. Like I start to do it and it just doesn’t feel good. It’s not that I’m embarrassed or ashamed, like I’m in a very sex positive environment. But it just like never feels good or exciting, I’m never able to get in the mood. Even though this week I was sooooo fricken horny and ovulating and my pants were soaked ngl…. But I would get home and get in bed at night and be like… I don’t wanna. I’ve tried different things, porn, nudes from partners, music, fingers, vibrators. None of it gets me in the mood and I never feel any stimulation down there. I know it’s not like my clit can’t feel stimulation, I feel it when partners do it, just not to a point of orgasming.

Is it normal to not like to masturbate??? I have NEVER met someone who doesn’t like to do it (except for asexual people, but I’m not that cause I still love to have sex with other people). Like I’m horny a lot but don’t like to masturbate. Everyone (at least in my world) talks about how great masturbation is and how often they do it and I feel like I’m missing out. Is something wrong with me? Can I fix it so I can actually reach an orgasm?