TW: SA

I've posted my story a long time ago, so I'm sorry if this is a repeat for you but there is an update.

In 2011, when I was 17, I went to a party and was SA'd. I went to a small get together at a "friend's" house, this person turned out to not be a friend though. At this get together there was me, my friend (A), girl who I thought was a friend 1 (B), girl 2 (C), boy 1 (D), man 1 (E).

We were drinking mixed drinks in B's pool when B and C told me they were "happy we were friends now, they never liked me before because of how pretty I am". I thought this was strange but was happy to have more friends and I was enjoying myself. We went back inside shortly after and E made A and I a shot. Then, I'm not sure how long I'm out, but I don't have any memory.

The next thing I can recall is waking up and asking where I was and who was next to me. D responded that we were in B's moms room and that he was there and I'm alright. He seemed alarmed and a little frantic. I found it difficult to move but was able to roll off the bed and crawl to the door, I was worried about A, we were best friends since middle school and I had no clue where she was... we were inseparable.

I was stopped in the doorway by B and C. They led me back in the room to D.... This happened probably 5 times. Then I realized I wasn't getting out of that room. So I laid there and he did what he did. They let me out of the room after and I went straight to A, she was passed out on the couch and hard to wake up. Then the police arrived with my dad, my dad couldnt get a hold of me and tracked the car with the help of OnStar. This is the point where we find my car keys were in a different bed and someone had thrown my phone in the pool.

The cop spoke to me but I couldn't make out what he said... he just sounded like the adults off of Peanut. Now that I think of it, was this a trauma response? Please don't be worried about A, the cop made sure she made it home to her mom. I spoke to A later and she has the same memory loss at the same time as I do.

Later on I found out I was SA'd by E before I was by D and that's why my car keys were in the other bed. I never reported my assaults because I was afraid to and afraid to disappoint my dad, who was a single parent, even more.

A few days after this happened, I reached out to D. He told me he didn't remember and then immediately blocked me.

Fast forward to now. D has sent me a follow request online. I have all the others blocked but wasn't able to find his profile until now. I've been sitting on it for about 1 month now because I'm not sure what to do. Part of me wants to call him out. The other part is afraid to and just wants to block him. But I'm also curious as to why he's added me now, after all these years and originally blocking me.

I'm sorry it's so long, thank you for reading though.

What would you do in this situation? A and I are no longer friends after a bad falling out. But if I could get a confession maybe I could work to some kind of closure...? I don't know.