I can’t keep up

I just need to vent honestly

I can’t keep up with my house work, the pille of laundry is getting bigger even if I do two loads a day somehow?

It is messy and dirty, the shower hasn’t been scrubbed since the baby was born and that was over a year ago.

I am constantly cleaning the kitchen.

And I know you are are going to say make memories, the baby doesn’t care about the house.

It doesn’t help!

Disgusting house doesn’t really help my mental state, the child is walking on dirty floors and picking up dirt from the floor, sticking everything in his mouth and I am disgusted by everything.

My husband does as much as he can. He works hard every day, physical job comes home and there is only a mess, kitchen isn’t clean, no dinner.

I feel sorry for him.

I don’t know how other moms do it because I am failing.

I feel sad for my baby, my husband and for myself.

I just want to have a clean home with moped floors. Put the baby to sleep, light a candle and relax.

😞

I am exhausted and it is still not visible that I touched something today.