I’m not sure if anyone will see this, but I would love someone to pray with me. Little back story, my boyfriend and I have been together for 3 years and now that we are set in our careers and our new house we decided to start trying for a baby quite a while ago. Unfortunately, it hasn’t been easy. We suffered 3 miscarriages. Then we decided to stop trying for mental/physical reasons. This July, we found out we were pregnant.💜💜 We were so excited and shook because we stopped trying completely. We’ve kept it between us and then we immediately had a scare. I started bleeding so I went to the doctor. After tests and such, they saw our baby and it was growing. 🎉🎉

This past Monday, I turned 9 weeks, and on that day, I started bleeding/ passing clots. I went to the Er and then had an OB appointment today(Wednesday)and we were told that the baby hasn’t grown past 5 weeks and that there is no heartbeat. She didn’t schedule a D&C just yet because my levels were 8225, so I did another hormone check today and by Friday, she’ll tell us whether the pregnancy is viable. Before my appointment I prayed and trusted that I will be given what I need and not what I want, but I feel myself losing faith. Our families are now telling us to stop trying and accept not having children and we can’t accept that. Our hearts cannot take losing a 4th baby. We can’t. They say it’s happens when you least expect it and we were so certain this surprise pregnancy was our time, but now we are unsure.