What is even the point of me I’m used to never getting what I want in life ever I’m the most unlucky person but this one really hurts and it’s sending me off the rails like I’m going crazy and I don’t know how many more times I can put myself through this why am I the only one out of 6 sisters who can’t do it why!! I’m writing this after literally crying and screaming into pillows there’s nothing more to say except I can’t do this anymore it’s really sending me into a dark place and it’s scary