Cheating

So about 4 months ago I decided to leave my husband due to feeling neglected and disrespected throughout our marriage. During the time of our separation I made the mistake of getting involved with a couple of guys. I know it was wrong and I feel horrible about it.. when talking to my husband he insisted we should get back together and try our marriage again and I accepted. I felt like I had to tell him what I did during our separation and he accepted that too. But now I feel like he is getting verbally abusive as every time he gets upset he starts calling me a whore, trash, bitch etc. And starts throwing things and making our house a complete mess and at times pushes me around and grabbing me hard to the point there is some bruising. I know I hurt him and I probably deserve all that is happening to me. I just don’t know what to do. I left the first time for a reason and now things are just getting worse…