So a little bit of context and a small TW, I am sexual abuse/rape survivor (first when I was 15 and then again when I was 19/20). I do belive that this is impacting my new relationship and sex life. My new partner is good in bed, he's good at oral and foreplay and he often makes me finish this way.

However, penetrative sex is starting to feel like an issue, I am struggling to enjoy it and I don't think it's because of my partner, I think it's because of my trauma. I have only managed to finish a couple of times from penetrative sex with my new partner, who is the first after I went through what I went through. When I first started having sex, I found it relatively easy to orgasm from penetrative sex, in all positions, but not anymore. The handful of times were either in doggy or on a table, where the sex was "deep" and "hard" - but they kind of lack intimacy and hurt a tiny bit, so it's not preferable to have sex in that way all the time. And yes, he does make me orgasm from foreplay, but again, it feels it lacks intimacy.

I wanted help/advice on how to improve this? Or fix this issue?

(Posting in both Love & Sex and Sex & Relationships)