wanting to move on

Sleep is a no no she's moving so much lol I enjoy it..

She the only joy and happiness like at the present moment in time... The father very questionable very.. being with child your life goes on pause... I am so looking for to go back in the play. for the most part I'm unhappy she puts a smile on my face though... Knowing that I have future ahead of me thats what keeps me going.... I believe this is a blessing he doesn't deserve along with me... It has made my first experience something I never want to do again I know it can be great just not with him.... I wish I had total happiness I wish I would give myself total happiness