This is hard!

My husband and I decided to start trying for a baby a for the past two months We tested for ovulation day and tracked via the old fashioned way on the calendar and everything. I feel like we covered our bases really well. Well go today and lovely reds have come into town. I’m having a really hard time with it. My husband is great and really supportive although I know he was disappointed as well. His siblings were all able to conceive and get pregnant without tracking after marriage within a month. Can’t help to feel defeated and somethings wrong.

At what point would you consider going in to check fertility. I live in a extremely small rural town. So it’s a bit hard to travel. Obgyn I’ve used keeps telling me that “Nature finds a way and I’m too young to check for fertility.” Im on a two montH waiting list for a new one. I’m nervous as growing up I was working at a vet clinic doing X-rays and most times we didn’t have proper ppe. Could I be totally fine? Sure. Could I do something wrong? Absolutely. I’m just really having a hard time. Growing up you just think this is all a happy process but boy does it hurt 🥲