Something I've never talked about

Sworn to silence does it hurt to speak up and caused everyone pain. I have this unexplainable feeling that I shouldn't tell everyone what happened but I want to vent to you

It was winter and I stayed for one week at a church members house and it was the day before leaving that I heard a commotion the husband asks his wife for sex and she said she was on her period to get sex somewhere else and I had a water bottle on the nightstand and I left it to use the restroom and when I went back to the bedroom he was there he said he was getting a coat for the morning from that bedroom and he said have some water and I drank some water and I felt tired I fell asleep and I felt some movement like someone was on top of me and I touched the vaginal area and it was open like I had sex I hadn't had sex in two years and I felt like I had been raped I heard a man's voice and I woke up to use the restroom and lube fluid leaked out and I noticed in the bathroom trash there was a pad with blood so I thought the wife's conversation was real not a dream and I just felt weird about it all

I think I was drugged but I have no idea on how to prove it how to know but it's a feeling instinct

Now this man when he sees me he starts sweating his hands shake he abruptly leaves

No one knows about this I left in the morning and I felt wounded like how could someone do this how can someone drug and rape someone I just didn't understand especially because he was married it hurt my heart I stopped going to church. I haven't gone in years I found out that he has been nominated to become a pastor he has been preaching in the church and I feel like it's wrong

How do you heal from something like this