Hi you girls

I’m a lil sad today becoz I keep receiving what look like shady indents

We have been trying for 2.1/5 years to 3 years I’m really sad

I’ve gone through the stages of grief though it’s dragged on

However I feel blessed and happy that my partner is supportive and staring to become loving and kind toward me

Honest, I had somewhat breakdown bcoz I could not keep up

My body showed exhaustion but I was determined and ploughed on till uncle died

Could not cope with more grief esp since his wed his daughter himself shortly before passing

Shock struck at the message left on my phone

Anyway, I’m able to function now and see outside of myself

Have no idea how my husbands coped with my ocd on pee-pee sticks

My son knows to join me on sad journey and not mind during ttc week

It’s really helping to vent on here

Secondary infertility is a real illness and not much acknowledged

It honestly can take your life in more than one way

I’ve not even remembered my family just living in my head

And now, I feel like making contact with them

I always complaining about chores or crying about my personal crises

However, I’ve decided upon embracing gratitude and making the most of special times with them

That’s my way on being inclusive and I honestly feel loved that they stood and chose to turn a blind eye to rollercoaster I was on.

Please feel free to share your feelings on ttc

Whether you can conceive or no but mainly ttc journeys