Obsessed with getting pregnant

I feel like I’m just obsessed with the thought of having my own family granted me and my fiancé are family but we want a Minnie us so bad😢 I want to know how it feels to carry our DNA in my womb, I want to have a big belly and watch it grow with my fiancé I want to know how it feels to feel it kick or have to pee every two seconds because the baby’s on my blatter ! I want to experience raising my child with the love of my life! I just want it to hurry and happen I am taking 5mg of femara starting tomorrow! But I just feel so so so anxious I just want it to be time to test already!! Anyway thanks for listening to my rant baby dust to all!