Libido too high or not high enough?

If words offend you...please fuck off. Not interested in word play. Maybe just tips on foreplay.

Anyways ...

Im a bisexual woman. Was Married to a man for 12 years with 2 kids. Only 1 same sex relationship. Total of 9 people ive ever had sex with.

I have had a lot of sex but never memorable or satisfying.

I've become "content" based on how long we've been having sex(time lapsed), I was just tired or sore... so I Tapp out. But I haven't been able to be fully satisfied at all. When I self please ..I have no problem climaxing. As soon as someone else is touching me I start to over think because I struggle with being vocal... but I try.

I actually get emotional if I watch porn🥺. And I get super mad if I don't climax with my partner. I almost feel jealous or incapable.

I am able to please every partner I've had mutiple times during sex but they struggle to get me there. Environment, foreplay, instructions don't even work.

I feel like I'm fxxking the wrong people OR they think they're better in bed then they are and get lazy when they have an encounter with me.

I always get compliments on the beauty of my vulva🤦🏾‍♀️ wetness and tightness from both male and female. Small penis or above average 🤔 🙄 im not even flattered any more. I feel grossed out and like I've wasted my time.

What in the worrllllllllld can I do to hack my own body! I've tried some toys, I've tried being spontaneous and I've tried abstaining. ...

At this point I just wanna be alone 😪 but I have high sexual urges and I can't connect with anyone past where its at. I can't even fully commit because I KNOW its going to be an issue and people are prideful and also shy or closed minded.

Any suggestions to help this retired nymph-milf get back on her shit like Stella? I love sex, I just wish I could afford a robot 😂😂🥺😁

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