Terrified of my planned c section

I would appreciate any advice/ positive stories to help me get through the next 10 weeks.. absolutely terrified of having a c section. After a traumatic delivery of my first resulting in a bad tear and year long recovery, a c section is the safest choice this time around which I have accepted. I’m still absolutely terrified about it though to the point I’m worried I’ll have to be put to sleep but then feel awful my husband won’t be there to see the birth. It’s really causing me a lot of stress and anxiety.. TIA 💙