I’m only a little over 8 weeks but I can’t stop having these terrifying thoughts about birth. How do I make it stop or relax my mind?

I’ve wanted this baby for forever but I am so scared of the pain a vaginal delivery or possible c section due to my disease will bring 😞😭

My first trimester has been a breeze so far but man this annoying fear that won’t go away is really getting to me!