I had a miscarriage some months back now and I’m about to go in for my first ultrasound appointment with my new pregnancy.. but I feel so guilty that I can’t let myself be happy that I’m about to be having this baby and it’s eating at me. Every day I’m getting so incredibly nauseous and I can’t take care of my toddler and my household chores and I feel like it’s a punishment for this feeling I have and it just.. sucks so much. I want to be happy and I want to be okay again but I’m just not sure what I’m going to feel when I see the bean for the first time 😔