Ttc cycle #2

I know we just started trying but it’s already been hard on us. We had a miscarriage a few years ago from an unplanned pregnancy and we have both always been super anxious about our fertility and ttc since then. We are both young so I feel like we should be healthy. This month I’m not telling him anything. Any symptoms I have I’ll just push them away and not over-think them. I don’t want to stress him or myself out anymore. I’m also not going to be testing until I’ve missed my period, made the mistake of early testing last time and I just can’t take the anxiety again. I told him I’m going to be quiet about it until it happens so I guess I get to surprise him, yay.