I just need a safe place to vent. I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks. The whole experience was hell. Today was my follow up and I had an exam. I mentioned a lump on my chest. My OBGYN who has been my doctor for 4.5 years and three pregnancies scared me. She doesn't like it she has me set up for oncologist appointment scans and tests. I have a long line of breast cancer in my family and she's being really proactive I just feel really overwhelmed.

It is hard enough I lost our very much loved baby girl that we prayed for to now having the possibility of cancer and I am just so angry at the world. I'm trying to schedule all of these tests and appointments and figure out childcare and I should have been planning for our baby. I am just so angry. This was supposed to be a happy time.