For those who have read my past posts, I am the in home daycare provider who lost my baby after being induced at 39+1 and was originally going to take a week of maternity leave off.

Today was the first real day back at work. We had four kiddos. We had our son 10/26 so I figured 3 weeks was enough time to gather our thoughts and reopen. Before we closed the kids (2-5) would always ask to see my belly. Today one 3 year old asked to see the baby in my stomach and I just walked away and cried to myself for a bit. During drop off his older sister asked me if my water broke yet (she must’ve heard her mom talk about it the day we went into labor, she’s only 4) anyways once they were out the van I absolutely lost it.

I told my fiancé about both incidents and he kind of shrugged them off but I do understand we grieve differently and maybe he doesn’t think this is significant.

The past few weeks I’ve been wondering how I will explain this situation to adults but it never once crossed my mind how to explain this to my daycare babies. What do I do?