Okay, you may already have an idea of where I’m going with this but still.

My boyfriend and I are about to celebrate our 1 year anniversary from dating. That night we plan to spend that night *together*😳(for background, him and I have had anal sex multiple times throughout our relationship) We’re both “virgins” as far as vaginal sex, and we tried a little bit ago but I chickened out. I then brought up to him that I want to try again on our anniversary. I want to do it truly, but here’s what I’m worried about. I’ve always been a little freaked out about the thought of having something up my vagina. Of course it’s a sensitive area but I’ve always just been a bit scared. I don’t want to be scared, so if anyone has advice on overcoming this fear or has something to say to help me out, please share. This is what I want. Also note, my boyfriend is not trying to force me or pressure me into doing it. He has been so understanding about it and even tells me not to overdo myself if I can’t. I just want to do this for him plus, I want to experience this. Thank you for reading and thank you if you drop advice <3