I am 33 years old and I’m a first time mom. My sister who lives with me helps raise my 4 month old. She constantly cries when I hold her but with my sister she’s completely comfortable she hardly ever fusses or cries. I can’t hold her without her screaming and trying to get to my boob and I exclusively breastfeed, through pumping as my nipples were too small for her to latch. I had an amazing pregnancy and I was happy and felt so connected to my baby. Even when she was born I felt such a strong connection with her I dunno what has happened that she’s just crying and wriggling with me.

At this point I feel somewhat jealous and I feel a bit down and emotional. All I wanna do is hug and hold my child and I can’t as she constantly cries and wriggles when I hold her 😥 I feel like she sees me as her food source and that’s it. She won’t fall asleep unless 1 of us hold and rock her to sleep which is okay but she can stay sleeping on my sister for 1 hour but if that’s me she can’t sleep comfortably for more than 15-20 mins without waking up screaming and looking for my boob 😩 Please tell me what I’m doing wrong… all I want to do is hold and cuddle my little girl I waited 10 years for her 😢