📌 So I need to vent 🤯🤬😡

I been have feeling’s thinking about my friend with benefits Ik right … but I end it when I started a relationship but I had intuition that my bf is doing something so i been cool about it …. why I’m ignoring my intuition /red flag want me to look for my friend that I had benefits with that I haven’t seen since what five years now , since I am in a relationship ….. in way so my son had his dad phone on play Roblox and that when my intuition kick in when I look to see if my son playing and I seen that he was sleeping so I got it and something tell me to look at his messages so of course, my intuition is right , so I look and I seen a message and he came to get his phone back and I tossed it at him and he just look at me like I’m crazy and I said you have some to say and he like you know this shit. and I’m like no what , and he like you haven’t given me any attention and I told you this would happen, and I’m like wow and I said did you do it ? and he like no!! I did and then say you see what it said ….. when he said that my blood 🩸 in me want to kill him instantly 🫠

Then he going to say that it was nothing she 35 her🙀… 😖 is lose and your is not and I want to be with you and I’m like wow 😮 mad still and told him to leave and be with that bitch 😡 and he like no! so then he get the air mattress and get ready to sleep on it and my son wakes up  and is call his dad and I’m like don’t go to him and then I ask did you fuck her with out a condom and he like what you think I’m dirty yes I use a condom I don’t know her and I’m still mad 😡 so I go in the room and I get a box cutter and I cut one of his jacket because I’m mad and then I started playing music and that got me just thinking 🤔 😩 and why all that I’m tell you I’m fertile mean I want some dick 🍆and don’t have no one to call are text so yes I fuck him and made him eat 🍪 because I want some dick 🍆 and im mad …… in way a part of me just feel like why did I even do that he didn’t deserve my 🍪 but my body didn’t want to wait 😩 and now idk yes I feel hurt but I do have 3year with him who is smart and know when some wrong 😩 why I need a day one ♥️😵‍💫 just need to get this off my mind because I don’t have friends that hit me up because im sooo busy with my son I guess but I do know my worst 🤨😧 but it like shit I guess what a way to end this year and just be ready to start a new year 😩🥴🫣 here is the test that I seen…. But he say nothing happened and it was his waste of time < his words ….. I guess 5year don’t mean shit and now I see why ppl get divorce fast. So 😢 sad