Not really TTC, but . . .

Keeping this anonymous because I am a bit embarrassed. When my first child was about 18 months old, I thought I was pregnant. Details unimportant, but late period and such. I had only been having cycles for about 3 months since I didn’t menstruate whilst nursing. My cycles became very irregular and for months I thought I could be pregnant. Fast forward, I had a second child and this babe is now 19 months old. I am still nursing but last week I woke up to use the bathroom and blood! I assume it was my period. There was no warning to its starting though and no warning to its end a few days later. My crazy brain is trying to convince me I am pregnant. I wish to be! I think maybe I feel like this because my husband said he does’t ever want any more babies. But I still feel like more little souls will join our family someday. The only way I will get pregnant is by “accident” because he doesn’t want to even discuss ever trying again.

I am posting to see who can relate. Annnd maybe ask if anyone had weird bleeding that wasn’t a period after all, but pregnancy. 🫣 Follow up: has anyone ever nursed long term and gotten pregnant without having a cycle that you were aware of?