I deal with social anxiety and now that I have a kid I feel like I now fail my boyfriend & my baby. He wants to go out and do stuff which I struggle to do in crowded places but on top he wants to do social activities together with his family too which makes it more hard on me because I start thinking what if I get a panic attack, not only will my boyfriend see it but also my in laws… I’m just afraid to lose my boyfriend over this… it’s been years that he has been patient with me. I have been prescribed buspirone but I get scared to take it..