Postpartum feelings

So I’m 8 months postpartum and I think I have a little PPD. It’s gotten better but I still have lingering feelings. In the early stages, I didn’t want to be touched by my bf at all. I was not interested in sex and he always bothered me. I’m now getting my desires back but it bothers me how he only goes straight for touching my privates and breast. I’m happy he finds me attractive but I think it’ll be better if we hug throughout the day or give each other massages. Idk, it kinda disgusts me when he does that. I’m hoping it’s just hormones and nothing else. I don’t want to push him away but I also can’t help how I’m feeling and I’ve tried. What are your experiences post partum when it comes to being intimate?