Most days I just want to cry. I’m on strict bedrest and away from family because couple months ago we moved to a different states. Just 8hrs away, but I feel lonely this christmas. I have a lot of issues with this pregnancy and I’m feeling overwhelmed. And my husband is the only one working so we’re kind of always just paying for bills. And groceries. This is my first pregnancy for a long time we waited for this baby for yrs and yrs 8 at least. And it sucks that I can’t even have a normal baby shower. I have to do it virtually but now I’m thinking of not doing it at all just have people buy gifts for my baby if they want to. Just send my registry and go on with my day of 23hrs laying in bed 🥲. On top of everything my fur baby passed away just a month ago. And that’s really making me depressed plus our situation. I hate that I can’t just have a normal pregnancy like the others. I can’t work and help my husband pay for our bills. I hate it. I hate everything right now. But I am happy that we are finally pregnant but I just wish it’s a normal pregnancy where I can work. Go outside and feel the breeze on my face while walking my our other dog. But it’s not the case for me.