As anyone had a “missed abortion” which I hate that word because I didn’t want this. How do you stop yourself from feeling like such a failure. Like I had one job to do and I couldn’t even keep my baby safe. And the fact that he passed away four weeks ago and I just found out last night. I had no signs of a miscarriage and I was still have symptoms. It makes me feel so sick knowing my baby was dying and I didn’t know. It so hard because I’m so depressed and so lost and I don’t have the time to let my emotions out because I do have a child at home. I have to act all happy and excited for Santa. But I’m feel like I’m drowning and dying myself. And I feel so alone. I have my so here and he is supportive and sad as well but he just doesn’t understand the feelings. It wasn’t his job to keep this baby safe it was mine and I’m that big of a failure I couldn’t even do that 😭😭