Mom guilt over spending money

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Hey y’all - first time mom here.

I was very lucky to be able to get a breast pump from my insurance for free and so I’ve been able to pump and nurse for my baby since she was born early Nov.

However I’m going back to work soon and with the holidays I’m noticing more and more how hard it is to cart my pump and all the accessories around and find and outlet and plug in to pump. I missed conversations and time with my family in order to pump and I have a feeling it will be hard at work to pump as well between set up, pump, clean up, it’s like an hour each time. My work is flexible so I know it’ll be okay I just want something easier for pumping.

I’ve been looking into the Elvie/Willow even the momcozy and have gotten mixed reviews on some of the cheaper options (even on the expensive ones too). For sanitary reasons pumps can’t be returned so I’ve been hesitant to purchase.

I feel so guilty about spending money like that to make my life easier when it could be in our savings for emergency times. Is it bad of me to want to invest in the more expensive options knowing they work better rather than buy a cheaper one and then have to get a better one if it doesn’t work??

If you have a wearable pump do you like it?? I’m trying to work up to buying one I just can’t help but feel guilty for it.