Well I just had a baby in July and after all the excruciating pain and labor I had a beautiful boy. Sadly I’m pregnant again and My baby is barely 6 months. At first I was excited about it but now I feel dumb .

The father of my child I’ve just grown to hate him over time (2nd baby’s dad) btw.. & stress has been taking a toll on me. I’ve managed to be hateful, but after finding out all the nasty things someone kept a secret for so long you would to . I can’t carry on the relationship, but more then that I don’t want another child by him . I currently have 3 & 2 are not his & quite frankly, they don’t like the man at all.

I’ve tried to let go of the awful things I recently found out after birthing his first son but it was my stupidity to get pregnant a second time. I don’t want any trolling ..!

I have thought about keeping my child , I am 8 weeks and 2 days ..

I’m also jus thinking about my struggle with my three & my stress, my support and just how I will be doing everything myself & a single mother again is jus not my future I’m wanting rn being in school trying to her my bachelors and just already having a baby.

I just want to know your thoughts and strongest opinions..

My kids father walked out earlier . I’m not allowing him back in considering I’ve already been at my breaking point with no help around my house and me asking to him to take a shower after 3 days and he just walked out my house without my acknowledgment and didn’t let my oldest daughter know while I was outside makin a phone meanwhile my youngest 4 & 5&1/2 months are in the room..

I set up an appointment for a medicated appointment.. I’m in a three bedroom low budget apartment at the moment, I just payed my car off. Granted my rent is free but I still have bills and I’m tryna finish school.

My thoughts I jus really don’t know . Just looking at my new little bundle still with so much joy makes me feel like I can do it again but am I messing up my life or have I already