Just need to vent.

TRIGGER WARNING

So my relationship has been struggling for some time now. We fight, we don’t have sex not that it’s that important to me. There just isn’t a spark there well at least for me. On Tuesday night, after months of just not knowing how to talk about it I’ve avoided it. My ex turns around and takes my phone and demands that we talk. We get to arguing and at the end he says if you ever try to take my kid away he will kill me. I tried to let it go, just chalk it up that he didn’t mean it. Wednesday we don’t talk at all. Thursday night, he wants to talk about it, it turns into another fight but unlike the last fight I recorded this fight. We’re fighting and he says, he could strangle me and nobody in the house would know or hear. I tell him he needs to go, I want more for our daughter. he’s getting his jacket and wallet and grabs MY car keys. He was drunk, doesn’t have his license and isn’t on the insurance so I ask nicely to give me my keys. He puts them in his pocket and I tried to grab them out his pocket and he pushed me on the bed, I tried to push him off me and I must of hit him in the face and he went to hit me. He didn’t but he was looking like he was going to. For the past two nights he has been someone else. He came by yesterday to see his daughter for a while and I went out the entire time he was here. Why do I miss him? I know what’s best is if we’re not together, but I still miss him. We we’re together for almost 8 years…