So so tired

I sent this to my bd/bf. He cheated on me a lot in the beginning of our relationship and I tell him all the time there’s going to be moments I feel insecure and scared and all I need is reassurance. Every time it comes time I need that reassurance he thinks I’m arguing. Basically he sent an audio replying to those msgs saying “put your big girl panties on” and was saying I was attacking him. Ik everyone’s gonna say to leave. I can’t yet cause I have to stack bread. Just need to vent.