Implantation & waiting…

Hey, i came here because I’m losing my mind. I had really light spotting Last Wednesday til Friday morning. It was so light, and te color was either light pink or brown everytime i checked the pad or wiped. The app is telling me TODAY that I’m 9 dpo.. i took multiple tests and they’re negative.. am i testing too early? Idk I’m tired of t going through this. And honestly I’d rather just be gone to keep experiencing the disappointment & tears.