Something must be seriously wrong with me to feel so lonely and not fit in anywhere

I was starting to build a bit more of a life in 2019. I had my work, housemates, new friends, and l did still feel lonely as I found it impossible to find a partner wherever I went I didn’t meet men. I went to the gym, on nights out and pub quizzes, and nothing happened. I’ve always had low confidence, and whatever I have tried, I can’t increase it, even therapy.

When we went into lockdown and all my friends I made moved away so I decided to move back home too. I was incredibly lonely and depressed and found it impossible to keep in touch with the friends I made. I didn’t know what was wrong with me, I’m quite an emotionally distant person and shy.

Then after a year of living at home, I decided to take the plunge and move to a new city. It was great living with fun housemates, I really connected with them and started to feel myself again. Until some tensions formed in the house and I no longer felt happy there and everyone was very disconnected to each other. Living in a new city, I didn’t know where to go to make friends and it all got too much. At the time, I was talking to a man on a dating app and it was going so amazing and we clicked well. We started dating…

And 3 months later I moved to his town, I was so happy but I still felt lonely. I just don’t know how or where to make friends. My boyfriend told me I had no hobbies, rather than staying home and cooking and playing guitar. I was so ashamed, so I put effort into travelling the country seeing my old friends. My boyfriend never put effort in to planning things, it was always me making the effort.

Then my boyfriend broke up with me and I realised he was using me. I was so upset, I needed to move away so I decided to move to the city that I was working from home from. And here I am, still lonely, still too scared to join groups or clubs, I feel I have no passions. I’m lonely, don’t connect with anyone and have no friends or dating life. I am a friendly person, but even my housemates do things without me. It sounds sad, but I don’t see the point in life. I wish I had my boyfriend with me still and even men aren’t even asking me on dating app dates.

I feel I must be so boring, I dream of travelling but no one to travel with. I’m homesick and miss my family. But I’m grumpy and depressed too and wondering if at 27 , my life is doomed. I still work from home and every day feels the same to me :(