Last night I was eating dinner at my in laws and my sister-in-law asked me if my husband had told me that my stepdaughter is going to have a cousin. I'm really happy for them but I'm upset because my husband and everyone else in the room had already known for days. I had told my husband the night before that I thought his sister was going to tell us that she was pregnant and that I was glad she didn't because I was hoping that I wouldn't get caught off guard. I was sure I wouldn't be able to keep from crying and I didn't want to make it seem like I was trying to overshadow their great news. When I told my husband that he had already been told the news but he didn't say anything to me. I know that it isn't his news to tell but I don't think that his family is really aware of the pain that my miscarriage is still causing...he does. I was able to keep it together until we left but once I got into my own car (my husband and I drove to dinner separately because of work) I couldn't stop crying. I haven't talked to him about it yet because we were celebrating Christmas with my stepdaughter but I know I will have to talk to him about it tonight. I feel like he doesn't really get how losing our baby has really hurt and changed me and I was hoping I could get some advice before our talk so maybe I can show him my point of view in a way that he would understand.