Afraid..

Hi. I don’t need any advice on this, I’m just venting. I love my mom, she’s my best friend. My everything. She’s currently in her mid-50s, which many people don’t consider “old.” But, she has underlying conditions. She’s able bodied, walking and talking. We even work out together 5x a week. But seeing her get older terrifies me. Maybe it’s because I’m afraid of death (working it out in therapy). But seeing her age has been giving me anxiety and making me cry all the time. I’m crying right now just typing this. I’m in fear everyday that I’m going to lose her and it would just break me into pieces. I’m working through not being so scared of her passing away one day. I pray every day that she lives a long and happy life. I’m not married nor have any kids yet, and I hope she gets to see that for me some day. 🥺 Watching your parents get older is so hard. I’m also an only child so there’s no one I can really talk to about this.