Vent time! -sorry-

So I was doing really good with the idea we lost a baby because it just wasn't right timing we had a lot going on when I would have been due however I just found out in Facebook my cousin who is almost living on the streets has an abusive boyfriend already has two kids is surprisingly having a third kid I feel cheated I feel like my life has been stolen and I am sitting here at work trying so hard not to cry I had my suspicions she was preggers based on pictures from Christmas but it was announced on Facebook today I just don't know what to do so that I can have a baby of my own there is no way she can support three she can't even support herself I am sorry I just don't know where to turn