I have all the usual worries / excitements … ups and downs as we TTC but I've noticed another that's getting me quite stressed!
I live abroad from my family as I am married to a forginer who's family are desperate for a grandchild (we too want deeply) … lately I have been avoiding his mothers calls and have not gone to visit her at home - it started with me getting stressed that she cries I don't call / visit enough but recently she wishes me children every call / visit … last time I saw her she asked me several times if I'm pregnant / my belly looks pregnant / I'm praying for it etc etc and it really upset me (I have put on 6kg post wedding mind)
Every week I start to get myself to go visit after procrastinating all day and then have a mild panic attack I guess and I get so worked up I can't leave the house … I've canx'd on her at least 3 times and not seen her for almost a month (she has req I visit min 2 times a week)
My mum on the other hand is fab with all this Waiting and I wish I could see her much more than every few months.
We have been TTC for 6 months which Is normal for anyone but as I have PCOS I know it could take longer and I already feel I put to much pressure on myself without her adding to it.
i don't speak enough of the language to communicate these feelings to her but at the same time I knew if I could it would end up with her tears and 'you don't love me like a love you's '
This can't be healthy for me all the stress and I know I could tell my hubby but he'll tell her off - again the tears !
Help !!! C x