I am thinking of.....

I think I am wanting to be the crazy hpt tester. lol. I am going to wait to test closer to AF day. I have been sooo excited ever since AF started this cycle like I knew I that this was going to be my month. I even got a good sign from my daily horoscope about a week ago. I am 8 DPO right now. I want to test because this cycle was my first on useing opk and we BD on peak day but not on actual O day. Which I have read that BD before O day is acutaly better. So that has me excites too. Also we have always missed the right times well never knew the right times. So I am wanting to test just to see if I get that BFP, but I am scared to because I don't think that would handle that BFN. Also I am scared that I will want to become that "monthy tester".