Big lump in my throat.

Emma • Was trying for 7. months. And on the 19th jan we had our baby boy.
Came on period this Morning. Been trying for 6 months now. Today I have this big lump in throat and keep trying to hold back tears. Trying not to cry at  bus stop or on the bus. Every tine I swallow. And I have this sick feeling in my tummy. Maybe a sick feeling of the truth that it may never happen.