Gods Timing

Me and DH have been TTC for a year now. I have the resources to see a fertility specialist but my husband does not (although we are sure it's me). 
​Not that any of that means anything. 
We are waiting on The Lords timing. 
I beleive me and my husbands sinful past is the reason for the delay. I thank The Lord everyday for keeping me baby-free before I was married but now I'm seeing it as more of a consequence to turning my back on Jesus. My husband too led a very sinful life :( 
​We pray everyday for Gods greatest gift and also for guidance towards what we should focus on besides TTC. 
​I'm venting right now to keep my sanity. 1 week till my period and I dread it. My nipples are always tender right about now and of course, right on time they are sore. It's hard to deny my period is coming when I know my body so well. 
​My hope keeps me numb. But my disappointment is imenent. 
Praise The Lord for your swift justice. Thank you for all the wisdom you supply us with through your word. I pray many blessing on all ladies TTC. Amen.